hello helllo..
seee told u meiting..im ALWAYS online haha...

anyway soo happy to be back in sch...
at least i can get away from my f***d up house
so glad to see my wonderful friends again haha...
haven seeen u pple in days...
serene<------- your hair not TAT bad lah...haha
claire<--------- u scolded me today! =(
sheryl<-------- haha missed u tooooo.... u bitch...called me bitch today
and other pple...haha miss talking to u all..
oh and SOOOOO many pple cut their hair....
is it a MUST to have a haircut every new sch term??

oh term exam was BAD!!!
GP was about wat sesame street...erh....watever
im gonna fail it la..i was dreaming during e paper...was SO sleeepy
CHEM...haha tat one..i studied quite abit for tat..n im still gonna fail it..
i just couldn't think straight..couldnt concentrate...

tmrw's bio paper...im gonna fail tat toooo... thinking of dropping chem..
but its not possible....drop bio...but i LOVE bio...its just TOO demanding for my small little cramped up brain
econs...no..i LOVE econs...i dunno i just enjoy studying econs...
inplicit..explicit..opportunity cost...cost here cost there...
im BORN to calculate stufff..haha tats y my personality type is C...

Calculative...
Chio
hahaa..kiddin kidddding...

was on my way home..wanted to buy some stufff..den realised..DAMN
NO MONEY....cos so many pple owe me money...haiiiii

oh...andy roddick's playing paradon later...hmmmmmm HOW?
tough match..but haha RODDICK will win...no matter wat

i think im talking crap heree..whatever...reallly stressed....
ah...the things pple do when they r stressed..now i know why
watching animal planet took some pressure offff....
oh man i HAVE to get a jack russell...its so damn cute la..
anybody willling to DONATE one to me?? hahaa

ohohohoh..!!! I was the DIRECTOR today..during lunch haha
how spastic can we be..meiting n chua....??
like haha we were making a movie..with only 1 particular actor n a certain actress

MARIAN <------ missss u like hellll!!!!! we HAVE to meet up after e exams.....
i dunno why but somehow i will suddenly think of u..haha okok sounds gross

ah im so tired..guess im gonna take a nap first... den watch friends
ok good luck pple with ur exams n stufff
hang in there...like 3 more days... no 2... nobody studies for chinese anyway


if....if..only.....

haha guess wat!!
sch starts tmrw...which means terms..
im actually looking forward to e exams
just get it over n be done with..
but i dun want to get up at 6.30..
normally i wake up at 12 lah..damn

erhh ok my hp bills like sky high...die im scared my dad will confiscate my phone again
damn damn damn...those stupid prank calls lah..!! haha nahh..

im actually reading econs now...let me tell u ALL about internal economies of scale..
haha call me to book me first..
i think i should be a tuition teacher..
taught mich n chua electrochem...n they understoood!!
am i good or wat...haha

my friend says kazaa's gonna come down hard n catch all those who dwld alot
ME? haha heck la im still like dwlding everyday.. my com's gonna explode one day from all the songs
ehh if u have any nice songs... tell me ah...

oh emily's back..but i haven gone to see her yet...
too lazy to walk tat 50 steps to her house hahaa
ah after terms la..
its been abt 4 months..wa so time passes reaaaaallly quickly

there's so much to do after e terms..
1) all my homework
2) continue shopping
3) practice my piano..exams coming
4) go tanning at mich's place
5) ZzZzZzzzzzZzzzzZ



oh yeah..m i very vulgar now? oh no claire..i think ive picked it up again!!
remember sec 2 haha so fun..


........

how come pple r saying tat blogger got new look or watever
how come i cant see any difff at alll?
like everythings still the same!!!
n sometimes pple say they cant read my blog
wth is wrong?

i stoned the whole day....slacked n slacked..
y do u think im always blogging n stufff
ok i shouldnt be complaining n u must be saying
just shuddup n go study rite..
but hai..u wun know how it feels...

anyway sui i have a song for u...inspire u? haha dunno i just love this song

CELINE DION-ITS ALL COMING BACK TO ME NOW

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I cant remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That its all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
Its so hard to believe but
Its all coming back to me

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then


yeah whatever man...i realised tat lifes toooooo short to bother bout anything
yah i really dun give a fuck bout it man...

sorrry in a reallly bad mood today...just felt like cursing n cursing
n my mum scolded me for saying blardy shit today

-nuff said-

ok i was online until 2 plus last nite..
im like really reallly dead man..
n i dun want n cant study...cant concentrate

anyway i got REAAAALY pissed last nite..dun really know why also leh
mich would know...TANYA its all ur blardy fault la...
ask me go disturb him!! now he knows!

anyway heck that...
im offfficiallly screwed...
didnt study...was online...sinned...wtf man..
im really pissed....in a REALLLLy bad moood

oh haha bertt...hes sooo funny man..
we were exchanging advice haha really dumb...

had piano lesson in the morning..early in the morning
i think i woke the whole neighbourhood with my horrible playing
but my teacher said i had a perfect pitch n my aural was good
hahaaa

oh sui..u know whatever u told me last nite..
yeah i understand how u feel
its not your fault.. ITS NOT YOR FAULT!!!
i mean like yeah i may seem irritated when u tell me abt it
but i know how it feels...i understand..
and we'll be there for u!! dun worry *pat pat*

im officiallly pissed...n dead...
i mean yeah i say fail den fail lah..
but my parents will KIll me n... it wun feel right..

i was thinking...sui...u got me thinking haha...
WHY....yeah wHY? must they do that..
why do they do stuff that we'll care so much??

argh..

i give up..im not studying..fail fail la who cares
i sinned today ARGH!!!!!
love this song man

Foo Fighters- Walking After You
Tonight Im tangled in my blanket of clouds
Dreaming aloud
Things just wont do without you, matter of fact
Ohh ohhhhh, Im on your back
Im on your back
Ohh ohhhhh, Im on your back

If youd accept surrender, Ill give up some more
Werent you adored?
I cannot be without you, matter of fact
Ohh ohh ohhhhh, Im on your back

If you walk out on me, Im walking after you
If you walk out on me, Im walking after you


oh sui....n mei...dun we alll LOVE this song..haha

oh read mei's blog..n her theory...
its so true! MEITING..its soooooo true!!
love=hate
u dun even know if u love or hate somebody sometimes..
the line is soooo thin...like reallly thin...hmmm
its like 0.2nm <---------- resolving power of a light microscope
hahaaa okok..stupid bio..gonna study lipids now..FATS..haha me?
geddit? haha

ARGH!!!! im so pissed
last nite...my mum used a faulty kettle..
so my whole house just suddenly got its electricity cut offf
short circuit...and i was using the com half way
so when everything was ok..i couldn't open some of my programmes!
my kazaa....my ICQ..wa bloody hell

but now im using icq lite...so no diff la..just tat dun have e history..

ok 2 days left..im so dead...dead dead..
now i know why some pple were so panicky..
i mean..i know tat even if i study now its abit too late..
no motivation also..
i know i can work harder when it comes to e promos..
but i'll just give the same excuse again..
PROCRASTINATINg....

oh the bachelorette...trista's like whoa...my gosh...
haha and ryan's so cute...quiet n soft spoken

yeah was giving advice on love n stuff to bertrand last nite
haha so spastic...was telling him how to get her..

ah..should i go back for founders day? realised i have to return some reply slip
i will go back..but should i go up on stage n shake ms kon's hand?
haha i wanna crash founders day dinner too..
haha oh man cant believe its been almost a year
still remember i was panicking last yr...
cos i didnt know what to wear..

alrightz im gonna bathe my hamster now..

at least im breathin
at least im alive
as long as im dreamin
everythings gonna be alright

okok 4 days left....this is SOOOO bad...
i haven finish studying anything...
and those tat i have studied..i cant remember a thing la...
i have to have to have to finish bio today!!

oh n i forgot to watch joe millionaire last nite! damn..
anyway he's so ugly la..dunno y im watching it also...
but i love the bachelorette...trista's soooooo damn chiio...
i dun think there's anybody chioer den her...hahaa

oh i was writing my shou ji last nite..n i realised tat i have forgotten how to write so many words!!
luckily i stil remember how to write my chinese name!!
oh gosh n i haven study for chinese yet...wat to study anyway? all the hundreds of cheng yus?
no way man..waste of time n effort...fail chinese la who cares

oh yah...prank calls again last nite..no this morning..at 3 plus..
piggs...if u dun need to sleeep.. I need..!

okok sorrry michelle...i promise...*crosses finger*
i wont put a STUPID in front of ur name again hahaaaa

oh yeah i was reading my mag..seventeen..
saw gerald wong n his sister... good genes man..
he's like how coool...n bernice wong's like how chio..
cant imagine how their parents look like...

i realised tat my fav song changes alll the time!!
but these r my fav songs...classic man..
go dwld..
1) skyfall-neve
2) empty spaces- sr71
3) waiting in vain- annie lennox
4) something to sleep to- michelle branch
5) ehhhh haven thought of yet...

ok gonna study..

Stacie Orrico - Stuck
I cant take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I cant fake it
The way I could be for
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinking of you
Its true
I'm stuck on you

ok i dunno why but i keep posting lyrics..heh..
but the lyrics for this song reallllllllly applies to me la..
n i keep seeing the mtv for this song..
oh yeah ok serene...the swing swing song's nice...i saw the mtv just now...
i need to study man..! but there r so many distractions at home!!
tv..phone..computer..bed..FOOD....
i need to get out n study man...

WA...okok thanx meiting.
for telling me the title of the song...
wa i absolutely love this song..
okok it was the song they played during the shots of smallville..

oh yeah...hmmmmm damnnnn....the feeelings coming back again..!!!
anyway i studied one page of genetic cloning...n gave up

okok go dwld the song!!!

DISHWALLA- ANGELS OR DEVILS
This is the last time
That Im ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time, I will fall
Into a place that fails us all, inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
But fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
Are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
Are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
Im always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

yeah..just came home.
from shopping...shoppings evil...
AS USUAL...i spent quite alot of money...
on cab fares....clothes...eating..

oh went raffles city to meet fiona n mich...
stupid mich..make me waste so much money calling u..
went lido to meet my friend first..pass him some money tat i owe him..
thanx max... for always helping me to pay for my bets first haha..!!

yeah in LIDO....i saw THEM!!! THEMMM
irritating man..spoilt my moood...i mean..yeah i do wanna see him haha *eye candy*
but...but...not with HER!!! XXXXX n XXXXX damn...
he must be thinking i was spying on him n following him la...
BUT I WASn't..reallly reallly i wasnt..
so happened when they came down i came out...
ah never mind long story...

yeah n stupid mich n fiona said that they were on the bus when they saw someone walking ard orchard point..
yeah genna jack la...asked him n he said NO...
wat the helll..stupid mich..still say ur eyesight damn good..

oh went back to mg to collect my o level cert today..
whoa...so happy to see my cert..
good achievement man... *pat pat*
but quite sad...to see a B in my whole entire cert..
stupid english...i got a b3..
if not i would have gotten all As..!!! haha i have 7 As !!!!
okok shall not be bhb...
oh saw ms thomas tooo!!!! my fav teacher...the one who made bio so fun n interesting...

this is dangerous..cos some pple have been reading my blog..
n got to know some stufff...
i mean i didnt say much here also wat..how did U know??
oh welll.... <----------- pls dun say anything...to anyone....

heeeheeee....todays quite a bad day...
it was the last lesson with mr joogle..
n to think tat theres only 5 days to term exams...gosh
im so SCARED!!!
oh got back my econs test..!! oh man...i passsed!! 26/45..
ok not terrific but at least i passed n not many pple did welll..
there wasnt enough time la..damn...must learn to organise my time man..

oh serene...i was expecting to see u in sch today..but damn...u OVERSLEPT PIGGGG!!!
k...gonna eat dinner now..

HELLLOOoooo....
just came back... went to sch in the morning
gosh 9am..!!! and at 9.01am....sui called me saying tat she JUST WOKE UP...
haha she flew to sch n reached at 9.45am..not bad...
i would have taken AGES man..

Bio was boring...but considering tat this would be the last few lessons i would be having with mr joogle..
i TRIED to stay awake...
i only had 6 hrs of sleep..!!
but it was productive...i got to revise some of e topics...
Got my enzyme+DNA test back... haha i thought i would fail..
this test's the highest out of the others... 18/30

Skipped econs..cos we knew it would be boring as usual..
i think only like 5 pple in my class stayed on for it..

Went to holland v for lunch...as usual..
dawn.me.mei.sui..couldnt decide where to eat..
Bk would be sooooo SIAN... KFC is a no no
Thai express WORSE....and of cos no baked rice also..no money..
in the end we settled for Katong laksa...
WE spent like 10 mins trying to figure out who didnt pay for the food..
stupid dawn...blur...!!!
left quickly cos the music they were playing made me feel like sleeeping..

on my way home GOSHH....DAMN..saw them again...
argh...y must i ALWAYS seee them....almost same place some more..
FATED?? haha eeeeee yikes

ah i guess everything's back to normal between my parents..cos my dad started nagging again..
and DAMN....next weeek when my exam starts... of all times..
he has to go overseas...nobody's gonna fetch me damn damn damn... nvm..theres always the friendly taxi driver!!

ok i better study today..
cos tmrw after bio n econs...i'll be going to collect my o level cert with mich..
den go to the mango sale..
and also to study haha yeah rite...
soo yupz...

ah the stupid SARS rap is in my head...so STUPID.!!
haha i dun look like someone who can play the piano?? haha
oh tat reminds me i haven practise today....

oh man so many things to do..so little time.....

Michelle Branch- Are you happy now?
Now, dun just walk away
Pretending everythings ok
And you dun care about me
And I know theres just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I dun care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

i woke up soooo early today i cant believe it..
had piano lesson at 9.45...gosh
and my piano teacher actually said i improved alot...and tat she actually enjoyed listening to one of my exam pieces.
im sOOOOOoooooooooo proud of myself man...

oh this morning vicky smsed me..telling me bout her party next wkend...ah but gosh..im not allowed to go out at nite!
haha but i would reallly want to go!!!!

den mich was so pissed cos she had to change rooms with her bro...
whoa..it was quite scarrry...

hehe oh yeah last nite...gosh chua..u must have had a gooooood time..!
u were so funny man...

oh i stoned the whole day...really...i didnt do much.. took a nap...
for the first time in so many months... i could actually take a nap during weekends..
it was so quiet..!! my parents werent making any noise at all... AT ALL
they had a fight last nite i guess..they werent talking to each other at all..
during dinner..nobody said anything...it was SOOO quiet...i could hear my hamster running on the wheel upstairs..

oh yeah n my sis gave me wrong info!! said tat mango sale was yest...
its TODAY!!! stupid man..den i wouldnt have gone out yest..

oh yah somebody smsed me today too....heeeee so happy..!!

listening to my fav song now....
just cant stop repeating it..

I'm, I'm so in love with you
Whatever you want to do
Is alright with me
'Cause you make me feel, so brand new
And I want to spend my life with you

Why somebody, why people break up
Oh, and turn around and make up
I just can't seeeeeeeee
You'd never do that to me
(Would you baby)
'Cause being around you is all I see
It's why I want us to

Let's, let's stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

its so quiet now...my parents r not making any noise..oh man...its quite scary..
though i do enjoy the quietness....

oh man i cant stand it....shopping's evil..!!!!!
i spent 100 bucks today! oh gosh...
but im happy....=) cos i bought my favourite perfume!!!! ECLAT D'ARPEGE
bye bye my 80 bucks..
i have been eyeing tat for months..! finally got to buy it..oh it smeeeeeelllls good..
*****wheeeeeeeeee******

i went out in the afternoon for lunch..den shopping oh man..
while shopping..i saw him...u...oh man u made my day...=)
den i went to aztec rose...n saw..no HEARD belinda..!! haha gosh..
i saw so many pple today oh well...

but it also means tat i didnt study today...not planning to later also..
i cant wait for amazing race later on..=)

ah but im stillll quite depressed dunno why also..
but hey chua..im happy for u....
when pple r happy...i'll be happy for them..
but when im unhappy.....i dun think anyone would feel sad for me too..

yah im starting to panick...i've only got 9 days left...
i just hope i dun fail..tats all i want..

yeah i was listening to my american idol cd..
oh gosh...im crazy....

anyway i love the bachelorette....trista's soooo chio..!!!! her smile's soo attractive...
i love the fireman..cant remember wats his name...
he's quiet n shy..haha...but so not my type...
my type---- hmmm haha...

i LOVEEEEE old chung kee's CURRY PUFF
i just love it....i love the eggg....the crust...the everything!!!
and its only 90 cents..!!!

ok...ciaoz

hello...ah i didnt blog yesterday!
i even missed joe millionaire...stupid show but i like haha

cant wait to watch the repeat of american idol...i practically love EVERY song on tat show..
come on..admit it...u LOVE the songs too rite...the american idol version
1) Lets stay together - Treynce
2) knock on wood - Kimberly
3) Drift away - Corey
ok ya tats it...

hhaha read serenes blog...yeah i absolutely HATE my dad...
i didnt know u feel tat way bout ur dad too!

stupid chua...ur sooooo IRRITATING haha..come on..
my list for a perfect guy is like how short la...unlike ur list
1) FUNNY...hilarious...
2) someone who understands me
3) someone who would share my problems.
4) someone whom i think is cute
5) defnitely dun need to be tall dark handsome...

anyway yesterday was shit....REALLY shit... dun wanna talk bout it
oh i spent my whole afternoon studying chemical bonding.. spent 2 hrs studying n slacked the whole nite..

ok i must stop STOP watching tv...
watched POPIAH AND ME while eating dinner last nite..
haha their problem was tat the father didnt care about them..
my prob is tat my dad cares TOOO MUCH...tat it becomes irritating...

oh yeah my ham scared the hell out of me yesterday...he was just stoning there for sooooo long..
n he was burping haha so cute rite!!! i thought he died or smth...heng he was just stoning..

oh yah haha stone...everytime i hear tat word..i'll think of GT's theme song..
-LIKE A STONE- how true man..

hmmm wat shall my theme song be...???
im listening to annie lennox's waiting in vain..its such a nice song..
it was on the serendipity soundtrack...n i loved it the moment i heard it..

oh yeah...i found this photo under my bed this morning.
oh gosh....he's sooooooooooo cute..!! haha =)

im so sad i had to delete those smses....when my dad confiscated my phone..
DAMN..!! DAMN...!!!!

ah okok....gonna mug now...
oh yeah n i decided to quit..once n for alll...

hmm..
i've been trying to study these two days..
not much done..but at least i got some stuff done..

im kinda sad...
been thinking these few days..
wats the point in life if i keeep dwelling on it..
yeap so im letting it go..

haha chua..i LOVE LOVE LOVE american idol..haha..
been watching the repeats...i so absolutely love treynce..
she's got potential...she just needs time.
wats so good bout the velvet tedddy bear?
he cant sing for nuts la pls

hmmm quite sad...seems like some pple have forgotten me..

oh mich...hai...i dare not ask my parents bout tmrw..
they'll either kill me...or throw me out..

i think when my dad confiscated my phone..he sent some msges to some pple..
my friend msged me today to tell me tat he did not reply cos he read my blog...
he said tat 'I' said something like i had fun or smth ah fuck up la i did not say tat

im so inspired to study...i also dunno why..
get good grades....get scholarship hahaa
dun need to depend on my parents..
move out.
dun have to see him forever..!!!!
haha my dad's got class for two weeks..every night...yes..at least i get some peace..

it was raining like siao this morning...i slept till like 11+..but im still sleepy now..
been on the same topic since afternooon...i HATE..DETEST..mole concept..
its not tat i dun understand..i just cant apply the correct formula n stufff..
i just hate calculating..
hmmmm haha but i LOVE maths..

haha was reading some stufff n have been dwelling on it..
welll they tell me to forgive n forget...even how bad it is..he's still ur dad
BUT..i cant...i just cant..i can never seee myself admitin its my fault n asking for his forgiveness..
yeah im in the wrong....but ..still...i'll never never do tat..
not now...not ever...

oh well....dont dream its over

ah morning..
some idiot msg me early in e morning n woke me up
haha n ham was running like siao..so he woke me up tooo

i have 10 mins...i promised myself tat i'll study hard
im left with two weeks...n ive got LOTS to study..
i mean it.. ALOT..!!

remember my goal is to get an A for math...
so work hard....must mug mug mugggggggg.....

ah im still thinking bout last nite...
when i talked to him..hahaa ok shuddup...

im sooo tired....had less den 10 hrs of sleeep i think im going back to sleep..
nitez

yeah just came back from denice's party..
it was...alright haha..cos i didnt know half of the pple there..
saw sharon..gracia..they're sooo SOOOO pretty now...!!!
wao i was shocked when i saw them..CHIO..!! haha
but the food was YUMMY!!!!

went to town to meet chua n meiting..
met pek n friends also..haha looking for denice's present.! haha
i choose it!! see i got good taste rite!

oh welll when i heard bout him today..i almost felt like dying haha.
cant believe stupid mich actuallly wanted to help someone else instead of me!
wat a friend man... !@##@@!
yeah im talking to him now...i'll never never never ever give his number away...

im so tired...
its sunday...one week has passed..
i gotta start studying..i mean like START...
it'll be the first time i'll be reading everything

i want an A for math..but i doubt so...but math is the only sub i can score in..
i think i'll fail my chem n bio...cos i seriously didnt pay attention during lectures..
still quite blur about some stufff..
like how sad is tat...i got A1 for both of them- O levels...n yet im gonna fail it now..
i got short memory...wun be able to remember so much stufff..so heck it

oh no was talking to meiting..she's addicted...haha mayb i am tooo but...haiiii

i got the whole of next wk freee...hope i dun need to do pw...
so i can stay at home n study...
i promise i wun go out...
i wun come online so often anymore
n i promise.....i'll forget bout everything
ah nitez

wao
im so proud of myself..i finally got some hmwk done..!
see i told u mich...we will never get much done..especially u..! haha

oh ade asked me to go pierce ears with her...but..
im still grounded!!!
yeah i've been thinking of piercing one more for quite some time alrdy...
just cant find the right time to go get it done..
just one more on my top left ear...den i'll have a total of 9..!!!! yeah so happpy
i had two on top at first...den one closed...
i think my left ear's screwed up..

cant believe i woke up at 9 today..cos i had piano lesson..
after months of practice..i still suck i dunno why..
i think i'll fail...but ive never failed...but this is grd 8...ah watever....

oh n some idiot called my hp at 4+am...SEVERAL TIMES!
it was a private number..so dunno who the fuck it was..
when i picked up...tat guy said hello at first...den later silence...
second time...noisy background...
third n fourth time...i ignored it..
I HATE PRANK CALLS!
n this isnt the first time alrdy!!

oh watched how to lose a guy in 10 days just now....she's sooo prettty!!
n guess wat....my fav song's there tooo...... LETS STAY TOGETHER!

hai...everybody's asking me to go embassy...
i want tooo...if i have the money..
actually...all i want is to see somebody... haha =)

ok..im back...
guess wat friends...i bet you all know alrdy...
im in lurveeeeeeeee hahaaa...oh welll

was talking to him just now..ah..he's soooo cuteeeeee..oh gosh...
why am i in this shit again...i thought i told myself tat i'll get over it..!

oh yeah..im so excited...i jsut cant wait!

STUPID CHUA! i'll killl u one day..ur always stealing from me ..HAHA.
see i wrote it down! u know..if u dare not telll i'll help u tell u know..

im doing my 1100words now...its quite fun...but i cant remember a shit la...
lets seee...... EUPHEMISM-a less offensive term
'Expired' is a euphemism for 'died'..
haha i love tat word...

ohhhhh i have new pics in my web album..go check it out!!!

was watching my hamster for like ten mins just now..
he was climbing...n swinging...n sniffing...n shitting...ah so cute..
no matter wat happens...HAM will be the one i love the most..!
ah nitez

ah last night was bad...many things happened!
first i accidentally n unconsciously told someone something...
den i think someone mis-interpreted wat i said...
den i felt so itchy i was scratching the whole night
den i called stupid mich n her mum sort of scolded me for calling so late
den my hamster bit me...

haha ok that aside..i tried studying just now...eh forget it la..
its not the end of the week yet...next week den i'll officially start studying

oh no serene..ur on ur way to msia now...i'll miss u...
n claire...r u back yet?

oh was watching some tv programme n i realised that yeah its not worth wasting time on useless stuff
i was kind off depressed..no not depressed..just not feeling too happy a few days ago..
but after some thoughts n stuff...ah i shall just forget n let go la..

watched the repeat of american idol yesterday..im in love with the song trenyce sang..
LETS STAY TOGETHER------------ Let's, let's stay together
Loving you whether, whether
Times are good or bad, happy or sad

yeah its very nice...go dwld it...oh yeah i got my hp back...FINALLLy after like 3 days..
anyway i'll be back later..

morning! was supposed to go sch today but i woke up at 11.30 so tooo bad sorry mr mashren
yeah everyone's giving me heart attacks now adays..
found out about tweety n enzyme yesterday almost puked my heart out
den bert just told me he was talking to kk heart attack...
den my friend just told me tat she got rashes tooo so coincidental!
hmmmmm stupid mich said tat my template is tooo boring..say i should have more colours...smaller fonts
wa lao so smart u do for me la..i dun even know how to do at all! thanx to mei n serene again for helping me!
talked to peew last nite...cant look at him in the same way anymore..its just so weird..dun even know whatever i heard was real or not..
i hope tat chipmunk's ok...he's online now..should i say hi? hmmmmmm no
oh yah HAPPY BDAY to denice again...i dunno if i can go to ur party..cos im still grounded...
i know ur damn happy rite...its ur best bday ever rite! haha but this yr's my worse!
oh yah happy bday to june tooo...it was her bday yesterday....
so bias....some pple in my class got her presents but not for me ah !!@#$$#@!

HAPPY BDAY DENICE! seee im quite punctual..haha
anyway im in such a good mood today dunno why also..
so issit fish? or peewee? hmmm all bastards anyway..
we were talking in sch in the morning..
ya i do like all the cool attitude guys...not cute but cool..
mei likes the guai type...same as mich...those who always stone one..
ok serene...u said i betrayed u i never!! seeee u got appear here wat haha
anyway thanx to meiting who did my template...but the stupid add was covering it..
so i asked serene to help me change it..
hope u dun mind..
thanx guys..i owe u...
oh wellllll nite nite

oh helllo dearest blog...im so tired...exhausted...went to sch this morning...bloody boring...we were talking all the way
i might as welll stay home n sleeep...tats so much more productive..
haha after econs which half of the pple didnt go..we went holland v for lunch..
but only sheryl n i ate at kfc..haha she's damn funny...
mei n sui asked me to go watch finding nemo..but when i called home using sui's hp ( DAMN IT ) my mum told me to go home
argh beeep la
anyway ive decided tat the next time i'll go is after promos... parties reveal pple's real colours..
i mean when they're drunk..they do anything n everything haha..
okok i judst woke up as usual...im still waiting for dearest mei to help me change this ugly template..im so stupid i dun even know how to do.!
mei keeps telling me bout her top top top..n i was thinking...who exactly is my top top top?
i dun even know if its fish r chipmunk or bruce..haha fickle la..
but i told sheryl..its damn bloody irritating....it gets into u...u just keep thinkin abt it day n night..night n day
at least for me...
seee meiting...i didnt say anything abt my parents anymore...cos i dun care abt them anymore...
oh dearest claire....i dunno why but i miss you now haha!!!!
hai im so bored now lohhh....

oh emily callled me from australia to wish me happy bday..so sweet...
thank u girl..
oh man i just love my life now..i dunno why..tats y i say love rules....=)

yesterday i had the time of my life...just sitting n talking n playing n having fun
something i haven had in a long long time... agh...so sweet in the hotel....
mich.chua.denice gave me my bday present..a levis top..den sui.mei.claire gave me a pair of damn nice flower earrings..haha
so sweet tats wat friends r for..haha my parents didnt even give me anything for my blardy bday lah
anyway i think they r grounding me for the rest of my life.....
n they confiscated my hp....feeel so naked without it...blah
went to sch this morning...stupid math so boring..
came back to sleep damn tired...physically tired mentally tired..cant think anymore
im waiting for mei to help me change my template....these stuff sux....they should make it more user friendly..
ok gonna take a nap now..
welll its my bday...but im stuck at home..staring at the wall...

this sux..everything just sux..
my parents are so unreasonable
wats the bloody prob with staying over? not say something will happen to me when i stay over!
this is so beeeping unfair...why are my parents like tat? why cant they be more open minded n reasonable
sui.mei.claire n i were talking at the pool side yesterday..they asked me whats my only wish ---- to change parents
not tat im mean or watever..just tat im so restricted n stufff..they say tat why is ACJC like tat why am i like tat after going to tat sch..is there anything wrong with me now? NO..issit my friends.? NO...is it my parents..YES
ah fuck la i just heck care them la
they wanna transfer me to another sch fuck then...i'll become worse..be an ah lian who doesnt study..screw up my whole entire life..get married at 19..have kids n be shit
i dun think its me who have changed seriously..its not me...THEY forced me to change

dear god..i know im supposed to be thankful for what im given..but i really cant take it anymore..my parents r driving me nuts...i cant concentrate in sch..i cant sleep peacefully at nite...i pray to u tat u really change them.or change my parents entirely...let me have new parents or watever..i just want to be a normal teenager who can enjoy a normal happy life...but i thank u for letting me know my friends now...they just brighten up my day
thank u lord..i pray sincerely for something to happen.. amen

oh well...life sux...love rules..-_-
argh if only something else would happen...

nothing important to say today actually...
i just realised tat life's so unfair...it really is
no matter how hard i try..i just dun see myself getting anywhere
those pple who do nothing...they get everything...
WHY????
oh welll whatever it is...i'll do my best still..